So why did I do A is for annoyed?
Well.. because I am annoyed. I"m annoyed that for the second time in three weeks I have a nice flood in my basement. Annoyed that I don't have time to homeschool AND clean and wipe things up. Annoyed that my boy will have to fend or help out instead of doing some book learning and increase his math skills and what not. It makes me feel annoyed with my time not being my own.
But you know... As I sit here and consider what all I am annoyed by.... a still voice within me is correcting me.
A still voice that says... so.... how are you trusting me in this?
And I have to admit... it's hard to trust God in this. I know what I have to do.
I know that my back ACHES... I worked so hard last time to clean it all up and then I worked hard last week with fall chores and this 48 year old body is NOT happy with me.. so I look at the flooded basement and I am SO annoyed because I don't see how I can do it.
And so God says....so.. how in this, are you trusting me?
And so I see my own frailty.
I see my own fears of... not being a good teacher, of not being a good sport about things, about not just letting it go and realizing that it will all work out. It will. But all I see is myself and my own weaknesses.
And that's when I realize that in this I MUST TRUST GOD. If I don't I'm not really trusting him you know. God says trust me. He doesn't say trust me in this, but it's okay not to trust me in that. He simply says TRUST ME. That's a pretty all inclusive statement you know.
It's something I say to my boy when he's letting his fears get ahead of him. TRUST ME... I"ll do my best to keep you safe... but even if you can't trust me my boy you can ALWAYS trust God. ALWAYS. Doesn't matter the situation. Doesn't matter if you get hurt or scared or fall down or look weak... Trust him regardless cause he really does know best.
So as much as I am annoyed... at the end of it all.. what do I see?
My need to trust. Trust God and him alone.
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