So when I think of the word plan what immediately pops into my head is how everyone in the homeschooling world seems to follow a planner. They get their children following one as well. Or at least that's how it seems. Plan, plan, plan.
I have to admit... I STRUGGLE in this area. When I plan, I feel locked into it and then I get so disheartened when life doesn't happen like I want it to.
Other people seem to thrive on it planning.
So why can't I?
I guess it's all in the way God programs us right? And I have to keep remembering that God has my whole life figured out. He's done the planning for me.
He knows when I get up and when I lie down. He knows my worries, thoughts, fears, insecurities. He knows my joys, and good moments too.
And knowing that I shouldn't feel insecure.
But still I do you know? When I take my eyes off him and I look at what others are doing and how I so often, just fall short. Yeah... I can make myself look good. But I don't see that right? I see how .. we started our Canadian studies this year with great intentions... and how geography with art became a flop. How I wasn't sure how this GPA math thing would work as it's so organized But how my boy loves doing it. He knows what to do and what to expect and he likes that.
I'm feeling pulled to plan more with/for him as it suits HIM to be planned.
But I don't know how to make it work for both of us.
You all have any thoughts????
And it's 1118...there's my five minutes.
Please do give me your thoughts if you have them.... I want to figure it out. :)